#32 Bangs

So I decided randomly about 8 months ago to cut myself some bangs. I've been wanting to do something different with myself to "mix it up" a bit and i was debating on wither or not to dye blue streaks in it or just cut it differently.

After getting out of the shower one day and staring at my still 10lbs till pre-pregnancy weight but 20 lbs to loose after that body, I grabbed the first pair of scissors I could find, a chunk of my hair and cut. And there they were. In all their glory. I turned to my husband and said " what do you think?" To his reply... "huh..." Not exactly what I was expecting.

This isn't me, but this is sort of what they looked like :)

I brushed this comment aside and quickly got dressed. My friend was on her way over for some much needed hanging out. When she arrived, her first comment was "Interesting..."and we went about our shopping with kids in tow. She said to me finally, " ya know they are growing on me a bit, but they aren't even straight!" As a side note, my friend Heather is Awesome, she will always tell me the truth which most people are uncomfortable with doing ... especially when the truth is crooked and ugly)

Not straight?! You mean when I hacked off a piece of my hair randomly with un-sharpened scissors we use to open boxes with it wasn't a perfect out of a style magazine cut?! I got home and took a closer look at them and they were indeed quite crooked....but it made me smile. I took the scissors and evened them out and reflected on what the crap I just did.

In a nut shell, with things in my life that are so out of my control it was nice to think of something and get results instantly. Yes crooked, GOD AWFUL and not flattering bangs. And it made me feel good about myself....even pretty....which i hadn't felt in a LONG time. And when they grew a little and I posted a facebook picture to build up my self esteem a bit. Gotta love facebook. Instant ego booster. All in all I'm happy i did it...and the blue dye? I got fake extensions that clip in. Works AMAZING and I can take them out when I want to feel more like a responsible adult! check it!

I am SO HARDCORE! lol ok these are red not blue, but I do have blue ones too...

And what am I thankful for today?

AWESOME MOVIES!!!!

The avengers was FAMAZING!!!!!!! please go see if if you haven't...my GEEK was in OVERDRIVE!!!

I of course had to put my friends husbands and my own into the characters.... I think we should always view our hubbies this was

and yes...I made myself black widow :)

#24 No longer an 8

I am no longer a size 8. I hoped I would go back. I prayed I would go back...but it's been over a year now and I'm pretty sure the damage is permanent. My FEET are now and 8 1/2. *SNIFF* *TEAR* (wait were you thinking size 8 in CLOTHING?!?! HAHAHAHAHHAAA ha.. *cough* I think I was an 8 in my
Mountain Biking days a distant memory of my youth)

So 16 months since I had my baby, my feet never really gone back to their original size. I was a good size 8 to 81/2 before the baby, then went up to a 9 while prego and now have settled into an 8 1/2.

Which means all my 8's no longer fit my feet! :( WTC?! Do you realize how many freakin size 8 shoes I have in my closet!?!? Do you know how many CUTE size 8s I have in my closet!?!? more than half my shoe collection are size 8s!



It saddens me so much. I LOVE shoes. It's a bad habit I picked up long long ago while trying on my mom's 80s pumps when I was a kiddo.

oh well maybe i'll make some money selling them and then I can buy all new ones! HA!



So what am I thankful for?



Unused DSW gift cards! HERE I COME SEXY SHOES THAT FIT!!!!

#18 my look

Sorry there will be no coffee review today I have a coffee to review... but i'm not feeling like it today :).It has come to my attention that apparently I look very different every time I leave my house.  I didn't pay much attention to the comments I would get until I hosted a makeup party at my house.  (please refer to my judge post and refrain from the judgement. I'm feeling it strong right now through the computer so STOP IT!) The lady who was selling the stuff came over early to set up. We will call her BEAUTY BETTY.  Well beauty Betty was getting done setting up when she stopped at my fridge looking at a family picture. This the conversation that proceeded. 

Beauty Betty: OH MY GOD! IS THAT YOU!?!?!  

Me: what?

BB: It has to be because there's your daughter!

Me: Oh yeah that was taken at Thanksgiving

BB: I don't believe it except that I know what your daughter looks like!

Me: Yep that's me!

BB: I mean, I wouldn't have even known that was you!

Me: well I did my hair and have makeup on?

BB: Wow it's like a different person entirely!

Me: Um...

BB: I'm sorry I just can't believe that's you!

Me:(now annoyed AND self conscious) Nope, it's me ha. ha. I clean up well. ha. Are you done setting up?

I left that conversation thinking...DEAR LORD HOW BAD DO I LOOK RIGHT NOW!? Granted I had no makeup on, I was in loungey clothes and my hair was in a bun, but...REALLY? I didn't think I looked like a totally different person. But then other similar conversations began to pop in my head. Like every time I start a new job it takes people a much longer time to remember who I am. It also in the same instance when I am remember it usually involves an exclamation of " OH JESSICA!!! YOU LOOK DIFFERENT TODAY! I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE YOU!"

Different can be taken as good, bad or different. I always assume it's bad. :)  So I have decided to put some looks together that i had over the years and you all can decide for yourself. 

And the picture that was on my fridge?

I don't see a difference.